Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Holden sees himself as looking old enough to pass off as over 21 for drinks, yet everyone he talks about getting drinks with questions his age quite a bit.  Maybe Holden has a little of his peeves in himself.  He thinks he's more of a hotshot than he really is.  
Holden is childish in his ways of not being able to handle and deal with his anger.  He is adult-like in his hopelessness.  He doesn't have the childlike innocence.  He knows things that are going on, and gets mad about them.  He thinks bad thoughts and doesn't have the  joyace and simplistic mind of a child.
A struggle I face in this transition into adulthood is that I don't want to go sledding as often.  I remember a couple years ago when one of my friends stopped wanting to go sledding as much as she used to.  I thought about how that was not going to happen to me.  I was not going to get sick of the fun things in life.  I was going to be someone who didn't grow up as much as other people.  I wasn't going to care how cold it was outside, and how comfortable it was inside, I would have fun! (lame)
     But sure enough... the sad day I'd dreaded snuck up on me. (but I hadn't actually dreaded it because I never thought it would happen.)  This winter, I often preferred staying inside because I didn't feel like getting dressed in snow clothes and going into the cold, so I didn't much at all.  
That's adulthood for ya.  

7 comments:

  1. Rachel, I love you.

    The funny thing is, that's absolutely true. When you stop wanting to stop things like that, it's like your innocence is fading away and being replaced by responsibility. You really are growing up because you don't sled as much.

    I posted about sledding and growing up too because I found a quote about it from my favorite book. :] You can read it if you want, it sort of ties in to what you're talking about.

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  2. I agree that when you get older you stop doing the things you think are fun, and start being more responsible, but i think alot of people take this the wrong way. It isn't that stop wanting or having fun, it is just that your idea of fun is changing.

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  3. Hey man, I know what you meen. With the sledding, I want to in my mind, but then I don't. But I suppose it's not the sledding itself, I think that as long if we can keep finding joy in different simple things throughout any period of our life, then we won't have failed. You know what I mean? Like, when we were young it was sledding, but when we'll be 30+, maybe it'll be pikniking with our families... etc. get what I'm sayin?

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  4. This metaphor is quite perfect and sad at the same time. Growing up is weird and hard. The great thing is, you still have so much 'growing up' to do! High school and college are full of learning and changing, but especially FUN. I think a lot of it is a balance---finding time for responsibility, but also time to just let loose!
    Holden sees this struggle, but handles it in a way that pushes others away. How else could he handle this fear of growing up and becoming 'phony?'

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  5. NICE METAPHOR!!!!! BUT not wantin to sled, U R goin' insane, or at least the fallout of society is gettin to ya.... I completly agree, to the section containg

    "He is adult-like in his hopelessness. He doesn't have the childlike innocence. He knows things that are going on, and gets mad about them. He thinks bad thoughts and doesn't have the joyace and simplistic mind of a child."

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  6. In response to what you said, Kyle...
    The problem with me is not my idea of fun...I still think that sledding is fun. My problem is that I am lazy and don't want to let go of my comfort. Becoming an adult I don't want to make the little sacrifices necessary sometimes to enjoy life... instead I end up sitting around in the house, later feeling as if I've wasted my winter.

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